Of plaguing questions and disenchantment

I can't help but wonder what the answers to the following questions are:
-What would life be like if I was bilingual?
-What would life be like if I was completely alone?
-What would life be like if I never dwelled on mistakes and just let things go?
-What will life be like in fifty years time?
-Why is Pingu's dad always ironing when none of them wear any clothes?

Today I'm feeling... disenchanted. It's one of those days when I just want to be somewhere else, just leave and never look back. Though I'd never actually do this. I have escapism to do that for me. And I know that the feeling always passes. Life continues to mundanely roll by, but none of that matters because I know that I have it better than a lot of people. I'm grateful for what I have. There are people here that I'd never be able to leave behind.

And I absolutely love this writer.



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Of callings in life and boredem.

I get bored way too easily. That's my revalation for the day.
  Yesterday I learned a couple of things that are pretty important: Trust your instincts no matter what anyone else says, and being a signpost is the shittiest job ever.
  Oh, and I need to be more assertive.
  Emi and Carmen filmed some of their media project yesterday (after a casting disaster) and I somehow ended up standing next to Hayley holding up a sign saying "KEEP OUT, FILMING." Of course I was completely ignored by everyone, due to just standing there holding up this folorn piece of paper, while Hayley argued with the people who refused to go away.
   I was talking to my singing teacher last night, and she was asking me about university. I know that I want to study music, and I'd also like to study abroad for a little. York used to run a study abroad programme to the continent, but it's since disappeared from their website. My teacher was telling me which countries were good and bad if you were thinking purely from a musical perspective, and I happened to ask her what she knew about the Sibelius Academy, which was one of the links on the programme. She turned to me and exclaimed "Oh, Finland's a great country for music, especially for singing!" My face went like this: :D
   So yeah. I had a plan. Now I have a reason.
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Of total weirdness and being "gifted"

Today was possibly the stangest day of my life.

I got sent a text-message-breakup from someone I've never even met. Apparently some guy called Neil decided it would be funny to kidnap George's phone and send an incredibly fake breakup text. I kind of figured it wasn't actually him since it emerged that Carmen, Becky, Kathy AND Jodie all got the same message, not to mention how apologetic George was about the whole fiasco!

Then I got some test results back that are supposed to determine the goings-on of my brain. Turns out I have no sense of logic whatsoever (111 out of 140, dearie me), and I'm seriously mathematically challenged (113 out of 140), but I got 129 out of 140 in verbal reasoning, which means I'm being put on the school's "gifted register" for it and apparently should be really good at English and languages. Which is good since I'm taking English lit and Japanese.

I think today must've been "lets-pretend-Sofi-doesn't-exist" day. Or "lets-all-be-ill"Nothelp being ill. I hope they're all ok. I'm just day. lonely. that people can

And apparently wallowing in self pity.

Although, in the grand old scheme of things, I'm lucky.

Not much else to report really, so here's some sexy Finns.

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Of music nerdery and insatiable wanderlust

Yesterday, I heard about a documentary film made for some Australian film festival, called "4". All it is is four different violinists in four different parts of the world, each showing an insight into life there in four different seasons, and each of them is playing a movement of Vivaldi's four seasons. Spring is set in Japan, summer in Australia, autumn in the United States and winter in Finland.

I really like the idea of this, since it ties in my music obsession with my massive desiresee things in the world, to not to mention my interest in the countries of Japan and Finland.Unfortunately, said film seems to be nigh impossible to get hold of. Still, I found a littleYouTube. bit of it on

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Of hiding in bedrooms and camels

Yesterday I went to a party at Georgie's. It involved being delivered free ice cream by a guy who isn't called Camel, and then barricading ourselves in Georgie's room in order to hide from her brother's rowdy drunken friends. We contemplated throwing Georgie's poster of Turisas at them, then decided against it.

Back to school tomorrow. Ugh.

Anyhow, some music junkiness.

PAIN - Zombie Slam

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Of feelings of guilt and The Piano

 Feelings of guilt. Hmm.

I'll be honest. My life's pretty dandy right now. I've just come out of the best year of my life, and this one, so far, is looking good too. The trouble is, a lot of people who are very close to me are having a shit time of life. And I wish to God that I could help them. But I know that there's absolutely nothing I can do, save the occasional hug and trying to make sure they know that I'm there for them. However, the fact still remains that hugs can't change anything, however good they make you feel. I feel absolutely helpless... I can't even try and describe how bad it makes me feel, even though things in my own lifelooking up. are

I watched The Piano yesterday. Other than the sheer amount of unneccesary sex scenes(ONE WAS ENOUGH!) it was the one of the best films I've ever seen. And the soundtrack is absolutely gorgeous. ( Michael Nyman for the win!)

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Of ends of eras and new look obsessions

 Second Critical Thinking exam was today. Thank God for that! Now I never have to think about that subject again! At least, not until the results come out...

I've recently gained a bit of an obsession with New Look. I just love everything in there! Unfortunately I'm not very good with winter clothes. I either need to buy more jumpersWHICH NOWHERE SEEMS TO SELL EVER) or somehow stop myself from feeling the cold so (easily!

Not much else to report, so here's a little something.

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